Archive for April, 2013

Be My Weirdo

When was the last time you actually caught yourself doing something weird? We all have our little weird quirks. I was being the overly observant person I always am, and I noticed something. I noticed, I prayed for people I don’t even know. I’ve always done this, but never quite shared this with anyone.
I went to a computer lab to complete a few math assignments, the biggest headache of my final semester. I literally began dreaming about numbers, it was a sad time. A very sad time.
An older lady was in the lab trying to finish a few math assignments, but I felt it was harder for her. I had no proof, I just sensed it. I tried really hard to mind my own business, focus on my own mess, but my heart had another plan. Should I pray for her? (without here knowing of course) No, that would be WEIRD. Well, I couldn’t shake the feeling. So, I prayed that God would help her get through the assignment, especially since the lab would be closing soon. A few minutes later she looked over at me with tears in her eyes, face red, she then shook her head saying, “I just can’t do this, there’s no way I can finish.” I gave her the fake “awww’ and fake smile I usually do. Partially because I froze up a bit. Especially after I just prayed for the lady. A few seconds later, I glanced at her computer and noticed we were doing similar problems. I decided to help. Mainly, because I knew the frustration all too well. I only had a few more problems to go, so I went over to her computer helped her step by step. Believe it or not, she was getting it! HER tears cleared up, and that was motivational enough for her to continue on to the end. Most importantly, she was done. I even had enough time to finish my three problems.
Feeling happy that I could help, I rolled back over to my computer to finish up my assignment. I moved the mouse, click, click, click….OMG, OMG, OMgosh! Noooo, my heart cried. Face itching, heart fluttering, I realized my work was gone, and I had to start over. I wondered why would I help someone before I finished my own work. With the adrenaline pumping I was able to finish the assignment, and I aced the test. I noticed I didn’t have to refer to my notes as much as I completed the math assignment. So, helping someone else helped me in return. I guess every now and again getting involved is worth it.
“Moments when you choose to step outside of population me” Helping others 😉

“Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves”
–Value others above yourselves 
Hopefully someone out there is praying for me
Please be MY weirdo, and pray for me as I pray for you :)


Kiss of Betrayal

I started flipping through a lesson for Sunday school. As usual, I found myself basking in my extra time. I decided to watch television and intentionally silenced my phone, that I just so happened to leave across the room. Eventually, I got around to reading the lesson. It was a lesson on the Love of God and His consistency. As a Christian your aim is to follow Christ. With my all, this is my goal. In the times that I miss the mark, there is always Grace and Mercy. Jesus is consistent in all of His ways, and I looooove that about Him. Here is my inconsistency—-> From time to time I allow the temporary emotions to take over. The days when people are getting under my skin I revert to my little shell and become that passive aggressive girl. For me, it’s more comfortable being that way versus being downright aggressive. Weird, right? I’m working on that issue, really. Eventually, that hunch of conviction comes over me. So, I find a way to get right. I don’t want to be that person. I’m to be Christ like. Christ is lovingly direct in His way, isn’t he? Admit it, He’s complete perfection. We are imperfectly perfect. We have our little flaws and all, but that does not have to get in the way of our goal to be like Christ. He’s willing to even equip you! Gentleman, I know. I love Him too ❤

Judas and Jesus were friends? Even though Jesus is able to literally see or hearts intent and content? He saw betrayal written over the heart of Judas, and He still sat with him? No way.

If there’s any indication that you can’t be trusted I will find a million ways to avoid you. No harm in that. After all, you should protect yourself. There’s a reason for discernment. It’s a gift, and it goes beyond you just protecting your heart from betrayal.

So, it was “the night before Easter Sunday 2013”

As I read how Judas Iscariot planned to betray Jesus. I wondered could I sit with someone knowing they’d be the very one to betray me. I can’t. After all the, is it I/will I be the one to betray you questions, Jesus remains true to His character. There was no sarcasm, no ill feelings, no passive aggressiveness—just consistent love. In all of this, the scriptures had to be fulfilled. Why, did He call Judas a FRIEND? (Matthew 26:50)

There’s nothing naïve about Christ. He created us, and he knows everything about us, every concern, desire, every motive…He saw the best in Judas. He loved the guy even when poor Judas allowed Satan to use him for 30 pieces of silver. He forgave Him and allowed Judas to kiss him, and this is even when He knew it was a kiss of betrayal. He forgave Judas. Even when you aren’t a friend of His… That’s His love for you.

–To be like Him…I’m working on that