Archive for May, 2015

Different Views.

We all see things differently and that is an okay thing until something that you have deemed worth seeing is missed by another person. I was talking with a friend about how I felt about the Baltimore riots in the Freddie Gray case and she disagreed. It is okay to disagree. Black lives matter—all lives matter. I have never had any significant issues with cops, but I have seen cops abuse their authority. I believe something happened in the Freddie Gray case and the cops did what most people do when they make a mistake—they tried to cover it up. I do not think the cops intentionally wanted this to be the outcome, so I feel for the family of Freddie Gray as well as the cops. I have never had to deal with a combative person and nor has my friend. I guess we have all said, “If I could turn back the hands of time…”

…no matter the frustration, no matter your authority we should all be treated with respect. Even when someone is disrespecting you that does not give you the right to disrespect them.

I started my new job April 17th. What amazed me the most is exactly a year before I was on an interview that seemed promising, and I was offered the job but something seemed too taxing. I became frustrated, but God made it happen for me. The new job is with Dept. of Social Services, so I said goodbye to public health (Dept. of Health &Environmental Control). I also said goodbye to the job I have had for five years. The job that prompted me to move on and apply for other jobs J I miss my old coworkers, but as I stated in the previous post…sometimes you have to say goodbye.

…here’s to new beginning and embracing the newness of it all


Second Wind

About a month ago I felt as if someone had knocked the very wind from my lungs. It so happened that I had to visit my family that next weekend. The tears never came. And, I just kept trying to figure out exactly what the person had done to me, but there was no definite answer. If the person had not done anything to me exactly why did I feel such an aching in my chest? The person did not say anything offensive to me. But, I still felt an unexplainable hurt. I was talking with a friend (the same friend that gets on my nerves every other day) and we talked about the difference of a betrayal of a friend and deceit of a friend. This all goes back to the gift of goodbye post and the post on Jesus and Judas…

Betrayal: to deliver or expose to an enemy by treachery or disloyalty; to disappoint the hopes or expectations of; be disloyal to

Deceive: to mislead by a false appearance or statement; delude: to mislead or falsely persuade others;

What the person had done felt like a betrayal. And, I was simply let down. It was a learning experience. I believe it is one of those experiences everyone will have to face in their lifetime. But, the beauty in this was for the first time in a long time I felt comforted while being in the presence of my family. Their laughs, their smiles, their hugs helped me. During my moment of confusion and let down they were there for me, and they didn’t even know they were being used to give me a little pep in my step, a bigger smile within my heart, and the strength to look in the mirror and tell myself that it will be okay… I had no intentions of going home that weekend, but I ended up being right where I needed to be. God gave me a second wind…I can breathe again.

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