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When to Let the Lion Roar

I’ll just jump right into things. Somebody ticked me off (this post was left in my draft box for nearly two years, lol. I felt it was too dark). But, when do you not remain calm? When do you let the lion roar? When do you show out and show the other side of you, and we all have another side? It may rarely come out, but it’s there.  When do you show the other person you can get just as low down? When do you lash out?

I’m angry, and I know the exact words that would knock the very breath from their lungs. I’m going to put this person back in their place. I’ll show them who not to mess with me. Don’t mess with me, and I won’t mess with you. If I hurt your feelings (which is what I plan to do) ooops, well, that’s just the way the cookie crumbles.

Okay, I'm not as angry as Angela here, LOL. She was on another level. The point is we can all go there.

Okay, I’m not as angry as Angela here, LOL. She was on another level. The point is we can all go there.

–How to deal with anger?

Anger is not a bad thing. Anger is an emotion just like any other emotion that we may experience in life. The problem with anger as well as any other emotion is when one does not know how to control their emotion. Controlling your emotion does not mean hiding your emotion, but it does mean being able to prevent the emotion from getting the best of you, not letting it consume you.

If you’re sad, say you’re sad and deal with the sadness.

If you’re angry, say you’re angry and deal with the anger.

When I am angry, happy, sad, hurt, or whatever emotion I am experiencing…I am finally learning how to let you know exactly how I feel and exactly why I feel the way that I do. I don’t have to stoop to your level of disgrace to express any negative emotions. I don’t have to cuss you out. I don’t have to fight you (although, I will, in a heartbeat).

So, there is a time to be the sheep. And there is the time to be the lion. Jesus was the lamb and the lion.

As the lion, Jesus didn’t murder another with his word. He didn’t belittle the person. He stated the facts and acted like a boss…

There is a time for everything. Know when it’s time to let the lion roar, my friend.

If you’re a lady, handle yourself like a lady.

If you’re a man, handle yourself as such.

But, still, don’t be a pushover. I’m learning that.

…not sure what was going on 2 years ago here, but I was obviously angry on this day.


Hot Days

Today was hot.

Too hot

Utterly hot.

A client at work decided to question everything I did which annoyed me terribly.

And, today was hot.

Eventually I cooled down. I’m home now. I hope tomorrow is not  as “hot”….

Side bar: My friend has the last name Pitts, so we made a “Pitt” stop at QT…haha, get it? Simmering down as I drink my QT icee….yay



A perfect life makes horrible art. You want to  be able to create art.👌💯#ChrisRock


Coming Soon!

…Hope deferred maketh the heart sick BUT when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12
People will disappoint you, life will let you down in a million ways, and some days you will feel like you can’t catch a break. Truth is we don’t always get what we want, but hold on, it IS coming!!!
Whatever it may be, it is coming sooner than you think. And, when it comes your heart will leap in praise. You’ll rejoice. Your hands will raise, eyes will become teary, jaws will swell because you’re so full of joy that you can’t help but smile from ear to ear. You’ll remember the lack, the drought, and you’ll remember what it feels like to be without your hearts desire.
But in the moment to come your desire will come!! 🎀🎁🎊 Be encouraged. I know it feels like forever ⏳⏰➿Tie a knot, and hold on tight, it’s coming. 😚💕👌
Wait for it, xoxo



I have everything backwards
I just expect too much from people
If I could, I would
Do everything differently,
Im just too naive
I’m the one who’s wrong
I’ll be the exception
To societies expectations,
Maybe, just maybe …


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Country Strong!

As this year comes to a close (FINALLY) I can only think of how stressful it has been. I’ve had to deal with coming to the realization that I literally hate my job, my supervisor frequently adds to my stress level. I’m working two jobs: one I hate and the other I absolutely adore! I would never recommend working two jobs, but my goal is to land a full time position with the one I enjoy. Plus, a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do. “My mama taught me that y’all” But, may God’s will be done. I have been on so many interviews this year I’ve lost count. I have gotten a few of the jobs I’ve aimed for, but I am also reminded that if you jump too soon things can become worse than they already are. Since I’m too familiar with the consequences of jumping too soon, I’ve been extra careful with making decisions. On top of that, I’ve been doing so much with school and researching and making it to class, which isn’t so bad. I have gained feelings I never thought possible, had to deny myself certain pleasures. I understand now more than ever what it means to not engage or indulge in desires of the flesh. Should you really eat because you THINK you’re hungry? Should you keep eating the tasty chocolate ice cream? See, there has to be limits, has to be boundaries. What I’m saying is I’ve felt the sting of saying no to something I started to desire more and more of. I’ve learned a dear friend is moving, felt the pain of not having my friends in place when I needed them the most, and I’ve also chopped my hair off trying to be Ms Au Naturale, and I laughed and sobbed…the tears didn’t fall, but my heart dropped. We will see what will happen next. LOL

I’ve had to actually ask for help in so many different areas of my life, which is very different for me. But truth be told we all need help at times, and I’m happy that there were people in place to offer me help. I’ve even started putting myself out there in spite of my absolute fear of rejection. People, rejection hurts. Reaching out to people scares me, but I’ve been doing it. I’m trying to gain a thicker skin 😉
In all of this cow manure ( I don’t use profanity, so sometimes I get creative, LOL) I’ve realized I’m much stronger than I thought. Getting back to “my mama” she taught me so many things in life, God, most importantly has given me strength to press through in any situation. So, despite my soft voice, my tears when I grow tired and frustrated, even the shaky voice when I have to confront people. I am a survivor, and I’ll never give up no matter what. And I know that seasons change! I’m excited about the new season. I don’t know when the season will change, but I know that it will. I’m excited, because I’m excited! Woohoo

*Thank you,  Tone ❤

Fleeting Emotions

The heart has its reasons which reason knows not of-Pascal

Sometimes-most times I want to just know the right thing to do. The decision needs to be made and there is no time to think about it. Just tell me what I need to do. I want everything to be in black and white let there be no gray areas. Gray areas leave room for error. If we are honest, by now we know that life is just not that simple. How sweet it would be if it were that simple. This quote talks about how in life we are sometimes conflicted because of what our heart feels and what our mind is actually telling us.

My heart is telling me one thing, but my mind is telling me something else. I know what my heart is telling me may not be correct, but it just feels right. The heart makes decisions based on feelings, but the mind reasons with logic. I’m going off of what I feel. In this case we must remember that the heart can be deceitful. We always hear the term follow your heart, but again our heart pulls from emotions, and our emotions change quite often. So, the right decision for that moment may not be the right decision for your future.

In life and whatever I may go through I would only hope that in my time of distress, in those conflicting moments, in those times in which I want to make the irrational decision to follow my heart– I can only hope to open my eyes and realize I may not be making the right decision. It is an easy mistake to be made, and I can attest to the fact that I have certainly been there. In time we live and we learn.  We live to see the mistakes the heart can make and we learn to make decisions not based off of the fleeting emotions of the heart.