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The Real Me

I have been really busy working on a special project at work, and I am exhausted. It is finally coming to an end. The women that also ended up on the project were not really the usual people that I talk to in the office. One of the women on the project actually told me that I only talked to her when we went to our assigned counties together on Tuesdays. She said “and, that’s only because we are in the van together.”  We both laughed, because she is absolutely correct.  I am pretty quiet and it takes some time before I warm up to you. During this project we bonded over music, television shows, childhood memories, and so much more. By the end of the project I realized that sometimes we simply have to share our true selves with others. It is okay to share the real you. I have spent so much time in my own head or in my own world that I have failed to share with others just who I really am.

Someone told me “Tiwana, I would have never known how funny you were if you never came out of your shell. I’m glad that you decided to come out of your shell.”

Truth be told…I’m glad I’m coming out of me shell too. Some people will like this “new” me and some will not. This new me is the real me. The me I am consciously attempting to showcase. But, I like me…perhaps you’ll like me too.

You know #TheRealMe. The one that people cannot see……

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Happy Birthday, Tiwana!

I am officially 26 years old. There was a time in my life where I could not understand why people were thankful that God opened their eyes to see another day. I could not understand why we clung so desperately to this life. I hear people say I want to live to 120, and personally, that would grieve me for many different reasons. I can’t say that I had days that I just did not want to be alive, but I didn’t see real beauty in this life. This just didn’t seem like a place to be happy. I took my life for granted…I wasn’t wrecklessly living but I was not purposefully living the life that I had been given. I just didn’t see what the fuss or excitement over life was about. I was indifferent or apathetic nit depressed ir unhappy. But, now I see life as a true gift from God. I now see that each day that I’m given God gave it with purpose. There is a reason for my being. So, with my all I thank God for my life. And to echo Smoke Norful, “it may not be all that I had hope for…but I wholeheartedly thank God for my life!” See you guys on the 27th year of life. I want to live, love, laugh, and not die for there is still work to be done through me. Life with a purpose. Live with apurpose. Live on purpose. Love on purpose. Laugh on purpose. ♡♡♡

Some coworkers/friends and I went to TN. Great trip!

I rocked a faux nose ring which is something I’ve been wanting to do for some time. I haven’t worn it since the trip. I like it though.

I received gift cards and great messages from family and friends!#LIFE

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What is something that gives you “life” 🙂

Why are you grateful for your life?

 

Rocking

A perfect life makes horrible art. You want to  be able to create art.👌💯#ChrisRock

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Coming Soon!

…Hope deferred maketh the heart sick BUT when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12
People will disappoint you, life will let you down in a million ways, and some days you will feel like you can’t catch a break. Truth is we don’t always get what we want, but hold on, it IS coming!!!
Whatever it may be, it is coming sooner than you think. And, when it comes your heart will leap in praise. You’ll rejoice. Your hands will raise, eyes will become teary, jaws will swell because you’re so full of joy that you can’t help but smile from ear to ear. You’ll remember the lack, the drought, and you’ll remember what it feels like to be without your hearts desire.
But in the moment to come your desire will come!! 🎀🎁🎊 Be encouraged. I know it feels like forever ⏳⏰➿Tie a knot, and hold on tight, it’s coming. 😚💕👌
Wait for it, xoxo

True Colors

True Colors

A few weeks ago we took a personality test at work (True Colors). With the personality test we were given a series of questions and we were then placed at a table based on our color. Our color was based on our response to the questions.  I am gold, so people who are GOLD as their primary color like to belong. They tend to be reliable people who enjoy serving others. Things that are very important to them are tradition, home and family. They need order and structure, and are loyal and generous by nature. They are comfortable with rules and routine, and require punctuality and organization. They don’t like waste or change. They tend to plan ahead.

There were four colors: Gold, Blue, Orange, and Green

Here is an explanation of each color:

My score was: 23- GOLD

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19- BLUE

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9- ORANGE and GREEN

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Tell me what color you THINK you are below!

 

 

Maybe.

Original-Dante

Maybe,
I have everything backwards
Maybe,
I just expect too much from people
Maybe,
If I could, I would
Do everything differently,
Maybe,
Im just too naive
Maybe,
I’m the one who’s wrong
Maybe,
I’ll be the exception
To societies expectations,
Maybe, just maybe …

-Dante

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Country Strong!

As this year comes to a close (FINALLY) I can only think of how stressful it has been. I’ve had to deal with coming to the realization that I literally hate my job, my supervisor frequently adds to my stress level. I’m working two jobs: one I hate and the other I absolutely adore! I would never recommend working two jobs, but my goal is to land a full time position with the one I enjoy. Plus, a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do. “My mama taught me that y’all” But, may God’s will be done. I have been on so many interviews this year I’ve lost count. I have gotten a few of the jobs I’ve aimed for, but I am also reminded that if you jump too soon things can become worse than they already are. Since I’m too familiar with the consequences of jumping too soon, I’ve been extra careful with making decisions. On top of that, I’ve been doing so much with school and researching and making it to class, which isn’t so bad. I have gained feelings I never thought possible, had to deny myself certain pleasures. I understand now more than ever what it means to not engage or indulge in desires of the flesh. Should you really eat because you THINK you’re hungry? Should you keep eating the tasty chocolate ice cream? See, there has to be limits, has to be boundaries. What I’m saying is I’ve felt the sting of saying no to something I started to desire more and more of. I’ve learned a dear friend is moving, felt the pain of not having my friends in place when I needed them the most, and I’ve also chopped my hair off trying to be Ms Au Naturale, and I laughed and sobbed…the tears didn’t fall, but my heart dropped. We will see what will happen next. LOL

I’ve had to actually ask for help in so many different areas of my life, which is very different for me. But truth be told we all need help at times, and I’m happy that there were people in place to offer me help. I’ve even started putting myself out there in spite of my absolute fear of rejection. People, rejection hurts. Reaching out to people scares me, but I’ve been doing it. I’m trying to gain a thicker skin 😉
In all of this cow manure ( I don’t use profanity, so sometimes I get creative, LOL) I’ve realized I’m much stronger than I thought. Getting back to “my mama” she taught me so many things in life, God, most importantly has given me strength to press through in any situation. So, despite my soft voice, my tears when I grow tired and frustrated, even the shaky voice when I have to confront people. I am a survivor, and I’ll never give up no matter what. And I know that seasons change! I’m excited about the new season. I don’t know when the season will change, but I know that it will. I’m excited, because I’m excited! Woohoo

*Thank you,  Tone ❤