Posts Tagged ‘life’

The Real Me

I have been really busy working on a special project at work, and I am exhausted. It is finally coming to an end. The women that also ended up on the project were not really the usual people that I talk to in the office. One of the women on the project actually told me that I only talked to her when we went to our assigned counties together on Tuesdays. She said “and, that’s only because we are in the van together.”  We both laughed, because she is absolutely correct.  I am pretty quiet and it takes some time before I warm up to you. During this project we bonded over music, television shows, childhood memories, and so much more. By the end of the project I realized that sometimes we simply have to share our true selves with others. It is okay to share the real you. I have spent so much time in my own head or in my own world that I have failed to share with others just who I really am.

Someone told me “Tiwana, I would have never known how funny you were if you never came out of your shell. I’m glad that you decided to come out of your shell.”

Truth be told…I’m glad I’m coming out of me shell too. Some people will like this “new” me and some will not. This new me is the real me. The me I am consciously attempting to showcase. But, I like me…perhaps you’ll like me too.

You know #TheRealMe. The one that people cannot see……

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Different Views.

We all see things differently and that is an okay thing until something that you have deemed worth seeing is missed by another person. I was talking with a friend about how I felt about the Baltimore riots in the Freddie Gray case and she disagreed. It is okay to disagree. Black lives matter—all lives matter. I have never had any significant issues with cops, but I have seen cops abuse their authority. I believe something happened in the Freddie Gray case and the cops did what most people do when they make a mistake—they tried to cover it up. I do not think the cops intentionally wanted this to be the outcome, so I feel for the family of Freddie Gray as well as the cops. I have never had to deal with a combative person and nor has my friend. I guess we have all said, “If I could turn back the hands of time…”

…no matter the frustration, no matter your authority we should all be treated with respect. Even when someone is disrespecting you that does not give you the right to disrespect them.

I started my new job April 17th. What amazed me the most is exactly a year before I was on an interview that seemed promising, and I was offered the job but something seemed too taxing. I became frustrated, but God made it happen for me. The new job is with Dept. of Social Services, so I said goodbye to public health (Dept. of Health &Environmental Control). I also said goodbye to the job I have had for five years. The job that prompted me to move on and apply for other jobs J I miss my old coworkers, but as I stated in the previous post…sometimes you have to say goodbye.

…here’s to new beginning and embracing the newness of it all

Second Wind

About a month ago I felt as if someone had knocked the very wind from my lungs. It so happened that I had to visit my family that next weekend. The tears never came. And, I just kept trying to figure out exactly what the person had done to me, but there was no definite answer. If the person had not done anything to me exactly why did I feel such an aching in my chest? The person did not say anything offensive to me. But, I still felt an unexplainable hurt. I was talking with a friend (the same friend that gets on my nerves every other day) and we talked about the difference of a betrayal of a friend and deceit of a friend. This all goes back to the gift of goodbye post and the post on Jesus and Judas…

Betrayal: to deliver or expose to an enemy by treachery or disloyalty; to disappoint the hopes or expectations of; be disloyal to

Deceive: to mislead by a false appearance or statement; delude: to mislead or falsely persuade others;

What the person had done felt like a betrayal. And, I was simply let down. It was a learning experience. I believe it is one of those experiences everyone will have to face in their lifetime. But, the beauty in this was for the first time in a long time I felt comforted while being in the presence of my family. Their laughs, their smiles, their hugs helped me. During my moment of confusion and let down they were there for me, and they didn’t even know they were being used to give me a little pep in my step, a bigger smile within my heart, and the strength to look in the mirror and tell myself that it will be okay… I had no intentions of going home that weekend, but I ended up being right where I needed to be. God gave me a second wind…I can breathe again.

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Helpful Hints!

Do not spend your money on unnecessary things. Do not rely on your money. I agree money does talk, but at the same time remember you can lose your money in the blink of an eye. “Make the money, but don’t let the money make you.” God gives us the ability to gain wealth, and he gives and takes away. Do not be so in love with your money that you become someone you shouldn’t. (Read- Deuteronomy 8:18) (1 Timothy 6:10) (Ecclesiastes 10:19)

If someone does you wrong, it is going to hurt you. You may cry, and it’s okay to cry. Learn something from that person, and do move on. Some people are not meant to be in our lives forever. Some people are being used by your enemy, and some people are plain stupid. Yes, stupid. But, that isn’t your problem, and you do not have the cure to their stupidity. Loyalty is a beautiful thing, and so is love, but if it is always hurting you, I have one word for you: MOVE. Yes, move and don’t look back. In the moment you’ll want to retaliate and get revenge, but it isn’t your battle. God will take care of the person much greater. You may not see it right away as you’d like, but trust Him to follow through. God will fight for you, and He has prayed for you, so you’ll be okay. (Luke 22:32), (2 Chronicles 20:1-29)


That person that hurts you to the core, if they apologize, here is one word: Forgiveness. Forgive them, it isn’t always easy, but still do it. Life isn’t easy, but you still want to live don’t you? Be merciful, but don’t be stupid. Your heart is not a toy. Protect yourself and guard your heart, if you don’t who will? If God told you to do it, it must be good for you. Don’t be bitter, just move on. You’ll be fine, sweet thing. (Ephesians 4:13), (Luke 6:36), (Colossians 3:13)


Have a few close friends, but associate with many people. It is beneficial to have people in your corner. Be kind to everyone, no matter how much it hurts. “Out of every 12 there is one Judas!” Don’t accept every smiling face as your friend, choose wisely. Pick your friends carefully, and the friends that you have, treat them right. It’s hard to regain a friend once you’ve lost them. (Proverbs 18:19).


Don’t be lazy. It’s that simple. Don’t be lazy, you’ll regret it. Don’t be lazy, work for what you want. Don’t look for handouts, make it happen. You’re setting yourself up for failure. And it won’t be anyone’s fault but your own. (Proverbs 10:4) (Proverbs 6:6).

Remind yourself that you reap what you sow. Remind yourself not to be weary in well doing. Remind yourself that things work out. Remind yourself that though it may hurt you, it didn’t harm you, and you’re still here. When you fall down, get up. You’re awesome. God will always love you!


 I’ll add more periodically :-). These aren’t rules, they are helpful hints.