I have been really busy working on a special project at work, and I am exhausted. It is finally coming to an end. The women that also ended up on the project were not really the usual people that I talk to in the office. One of the women on the project actually told me that I only talked to her when we went to our assigned counties together on Tuesdays. She said “and, that’s only because we are in the van together.” We both laughed, because she is absolutely correct. I am pretty quiet and it takes some time before I warm up to you. During this project we bonded over music, television shows, childhood memories, and so much more. By the end of the project I realized that sometimes we simply have to share our true selves with others. It is okay to share the real you. I have spent so much time in my own head or in my own world that I have failed to share with others just who I really am.
Someone told me “Tiwana, I would have never known how funny you were if you never came out of your shell. I’m glad that you decided to come out of your shell.”
Truth be told…I’m glad I’m coming out of me shell too. Some people will like this “new” me and some will not. This new me is the real me. The me I am consciously attempting to showcase. But, I like me…perhaps you’ll like me too.
I am officially 26 years old. There was a time in my life where I could not understand why people were thankful that God opened their eyes to see another day. I could not understand why we clung so desperately to this life. I hear people say I want to live to 120, and personally, that would grieve me for many different reasons. I can’t say that I had days that I just did not want to be alive, but I didn’t see real beauty in this life. This just didn’t seem like a place to be happy. I took my life for granted…I wasn’t wrecklessly living but I was not purposefully living the life that I had been given. I just didn’t see what the fuss or excitement over life was about. I was indifferent or apathetic nit depressed ir unhappy. But, now I see life as a true gift from God. I now see that each day that I’m given God gave it with purpose. There is a reason for my being. So, with my all I thank God for my life. And to echo Smoke Norful, “it may not be all that I had hope for…but I wholeheartedly thank God for my life!” See you guys on the 27th year of life. I want to live, love, laugh, and not die for there is still work to be done through me. Life with a purpose. Live with apurpose. Live on purpose. Love on purpose. Laugh on purpose. ♡♡♡
Some coworkers/friends and I went to TN. Great trip!
I rocked a faux nose ring which is something I’ve been wanting to do for some time. I haven’t worn it since the trip. I like it though.
I received gift cards and great messages from family and friends!#LIFE
Day 23: Post 5 Pictures of Celebrities That You Find Attractive!
I believe that we are all beautiful. There is always something that makes you beautiful. And, who can stop with 5 celebrities?!
Jonathan McReynolds
This guy has the ability to put words together. He is one of my favotite music artist… He said, “Tiwana, I’ve gotta have you, gotta have you ♡♡♡!” Okay, no, it’s a song about the necessity of God in our lives.
Sanaa Lathan
She is gorgeous, and I enjoy her movies for the most part. She seems to have a natural beauty.
Jesse Lee Soffer
Ummm, have you not seen this guy in uniform. Chicago PD is the stuff!
Blair Underwood
I know he’s way older than I am, but he is so fioneeee. LOL. He is handsome and seems to have his head on straight. You never hear anything too ridiculous in the media about him. And, the first time I saw him on Set It Off as a banker dating Jada Pinkett, OMGosh! I have to tap his wife on the shoulder, and applaud her! 😂 🙊
Cicely Tyson
There is something so sweet about this woman. She also reminds me of my grandma. I would love to go over to her house and sit and listen to whatever wisdom she wants to bestow on little ole me!
Random Commercial Girl, LOL
Lynn Whitfield
She seems to be such a woman in whatever she plays in! And, she definitely commands the room. No matter what she stars in there is something very captivating about, Lynn.
Adonda Thorne
I love a person that can tell a story. I adore a storyteller. A scary story, a romantic story, a story with a splash of suspense, splash of comedy, well here is a Youtube vlogger that can do just that, Swoozie06, The Storyteller
Last, but certainly not least!
Jay Ellis and Lee Thompson Young (Lee, deceased) both are actors and from Souf Cak (SC).
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There are a million other people that come to mind. There is Monique (The Parkers), Queen Latifah, KATE Winslet (Titanic), Tia and Tamera Mowry, Katie Couric, the lady from Seinfeld (Julia) and oh snap the guy from the NEWS (Miguel Almaguer) He should have been the first person on this list! What in the world is wrong with me, LOL!
Drop a few names below and definitely watch the STORYTELLER 😉
…Hope deferred maketh the heart sick BUT when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12
People will disappoint you, life will let you down in a million ways, and some days you will feel like you can’t catch a break. Truth is we don’t always get what we want, but hold on, it IS coming!!!
Whatever it may be, it is coming sooner than you think. And, when it comes your heart will leap in praise. You’ll rejoice. Your hands will raise, eyes will become teary, jaws will swell because you’re so full of joy that you can’t help but smile from ear to ear. You’ll remember the lack, the drought, and you’ll remember what it feels like to be without your hearts desire.
But in the moment to come your desire will come!! 🎀🎁🎊 Be encouraged. I know it feels like forever ⏳⏰➿Tie a knot, and hold on tight, it’s coming. 😚💕👌
Wait for it, xoxo
There is a 30-day blog challenge going around, and I think it’s great. I have selected Day 15 which asks that I list 15 interesting things about myself. See how random I am? Also, I’m going to add a twist. I am sharing 20 interesting things instead of 15 things about myself, HA!
I love how I have the ability to show genuine love for others…
Fresh cherries are my favorite fruit.
For years I was ashamed about things that didn’t even matter.
I love having the closed captioning on the screen when I’m watching television.
I dislike when the waiter adds drink to my cup when I’m out at a restaurant. I usually never want a refill, and if it’s refilled you’ve now thrown off the taste of my drink.
I have only sent food back once at a restaurant (that happened last week, proud moment) LOL
Music is awesome and to me there is a song for every situation. Most of my favorite artist others have never even heard of ❤
Text messaging to me is fun but only if the person is just as quick and sarcastic as I am. I generally use emojis in every text EXCEPT with old people and job related things.
I’m a very private person.
If I need something I would rather break my own back to get it than to have to ask someone else for help. Not a pride thing…I just never want to be a burden on others. I’m working on this.
I would go to war for my immediate family and closest friends.
I love corny jokes and corny people.
When I say that I’m socially awkward I mean it, lol. I’m so glad others don’t know what is going on in my head.
If ANY assumingly single guy asks for my number even if I am not interested I am still giving him my number. I’m not going to lead him on, and he will DEFINITELY recognize that I’m not interested. Either I’m not going to answer or I will take forever and a day to respond. I hate to ignore people. But, there have been times when the guy just wouldn’t stop, in those cases I’m honest and upfront in explaining that I’m not interested. “argh”
I dislike anything wet touching me
I must have on socks if my feet are touching the floor if not it feels funny.
Love avocados!
I remember things other people tend to forget and to not appear so weird I keep it to myself usually. For example, I know birthdays and anniversaries and can remember conversations from years ago. Oh, but I can’t remember music lyrics or poems.
I dislike summertime and I wish Winter was year-round. I want it to be so cold that I can’t feel my toes. And, I live in South Carolina…so, yeah my wish is never coming true. I adore windy days and winter.
I love to laugh! In elementary school I got in trouble, because I would not stop laughing in class. My mom was notified, other than that I was the model student. Haha <—There I go laughing again!
This was fun, and I hope that you have enjoyed getting to know me. I encourage you to share a few things about yourself as well. Because, you’re special just the way you are.
A few weeks ago we took a personality test at work (True Colors). With the personality test we were given a series of questions and we were then placed at a table based on our color. Our color was based on our response to the questions. I am gold, so people who are GOLD as their primary color like to belong. They tend to be reliable people who enjoy serving others. Things that are very important to them are tradition, home and family. They need order and structure, and are loyal and generous by nature. They are comfortable with rules and routine, and require punctuality and organization. They don’t like waste or change. They tend to plan ahead.
There were four colors: Gold, Blue, Orange, and Green
Maybe,
I have everything backwards
Maybe,
I just expect too much from people
Maybe,
If I could, I would
Do everything differently,
Maybe,
Im just too naive
Maybe,
I’m the one who’s wrong
Maybe,
I’ll be the exception
To societies expectations,
Maybe, just maybe …
November 2012
Seth,
As you know everything I seem to want, either is comes late or it doesn’t seem to come at all. I’m late with anything that I can’t control—always the late bloomer. Late first date, late first kiss, you know the deal. My attention was always on the future. I just could not live for the moment. The moment was too brief. I focused on the future and making the prudent choice. After all, where else should I place my focus? High school came and went, and everyone I knew seemed to have flirted with romance. I stood in the corner and watched. Temporary was tempting, but I felt my heart couldn’t bare a temporary ‘love’. So, I automatically knew I needed forever from the one I’d give into. Many said I was different, and let’s face it they’re absolutely right. I prayed that one day I would gain the Love my heart yearned for. God knew what I wanted and I trusted his time and his plan. Doing it on my own was too risky, so I waited…and one day something happened.
You laugh, but I really did have you with my stuttered, “hello.” I still remember the moment. I wanted to run and hide when my words wouldn’t come together. Though, it is not unusual for my words to not come together when I’m in front of people. Yet, you were different. Unlike most people you waited for my words with patience and understanding and with a smile. You didn’t laugh at me. You didn’t have pity in your eyes, you just waited. You are one smooth fellow, Seth, my love. Thank you for every moment you so patiently handle with me.
Nothing is more calming, more thrilling than being able to laugh without reserve. To laugh and throw my head back, allow my knees to buckle, allow the tears to come from my eyes, and to lean on your shoulders because I’m too weak to stand from laughter. I walked in the gym and looked around at everyone. They all seemed so fit, it was very intimidating. Then, our eyes met and you said, “The most annoying thing is seeing those people here that are in exceptionally good shape. Doesn’t it just make you feel like screaming, GO HOME! You’re done.” You always find a way to make me laugh. I love you for that. It’s one of your many comforting gifts. Thank you for every hearty laugh, even the times when you weren’t even trying.
I wanted to do it one way, and you kept suggesting we do it another way. Here we are in a debate, a disagreement. It never becomes an argument with you. I’ve never thanked you for that, so thank you for not arguing with me. You made it very clear in the beginning that you will not argue. I finally understand why. In an argument, respect can be discarded, but in a debate we can both safely express ourselves. Sometimes, I’m right, and sometimes I’m wrong, and the same with you. In the times that you are wrong, you know how to apologize. You’re such a man, boy. With my whole heart, I thank you for respecting me enough, for loving me enough to handle my feelings with care-for not yelling at me-for not ignoring me-for not crushing me with a poisonous tone or harsh words ❤
Hearing your, “I love you’s” is nice. I need to see it, feel it, and yes, sometimes hear it. I feel your love when you cook the teriyaki chicken that never comes out right. You tried. I love your effort. Remember, the autumn day when all the leaves were on the ground…you looked back with your hands held out and said, “Honey, grab my hand, you’ll fall with all of these leaves on the ground.” As you were looking back to grab my hand you fell flat on your hinny. Oh, how I laughed that day! Thank you for taking the fall, literally. I love your consideration. Thinking about others is what it is about. Budgeting together was always so frustrating. I couldn’t figure it out, and you taught me how to budget our finances. Thank you for putting your ear to my heart and listening to the hurts, the frustrations, and every other thing that I couldn’t stand to explain. You’ve taught me so many things. But, I’m STILL smarter than you, okay 😉
Seth, sweetheart, you are everything I need and want. I can hear you say those corny “I love you more than phrases”. I love you more than snakes love the grass. I love you more than the sun likes to shine. I love you more than the clouds love the sky. You are so corny, man, but I understand every word from your lips when you express your love to me. I’m glad I bypassed the imitation love and waited on the real deal with you. Love never ends, so I love you forever. Thank you for being a friend that I can call on and for extending to me a love that I can depend on.
I’m looking at you as you stare in the mirror with sleepy eyes getting ready for work. You’re shaving. Thank God, you’re shaving today. I don’t like stubble. You’re so handsome, and though looks fade in time, you’ll always be the cover of my magazine. You’re mine and I’m yours. Although, you don’t like the music I like here is a song just for you…I think the artist stole the words from heart, because every word is what I feel for you. The lyrics are exactly what I feel when I think of you. Thank you for choosing to love me the right way a man should love a woman. Thank you for being a man after God’s heart first and coming after mine with all you’ve got.
“All I’ll Ever Ask”
Love means so many different things
But you’re all that matters
And this is all I’ll ever ask of you
Tell me your dreams, so they can be mine too
Let me be there to help them come true
Tell me your fears, when you feel afraid
Come to my arms let me rock them away
That’s all I’ll ever ask, that’s all I’ll ever ask
Thats all I’ll ever ask, of you
Come to my shoulder when you need to weep
Wake me up, when you cannot sleep
Talk to me, when you want to be heard
Be silent with me, when you can’t say a word
I can’t swear you’ll never have to cry another tear
But when ever you want someone to hold you, I’m always right here
So just come to me for anything at all, call my name, it’s yours to call
Feel my faith in you when you can’t find your own
And always remember you’re never alone
That’s all I’ll ever ask, that’s all I’ll ever ask”
Cicely Tyson
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twrightlove 
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